delusional optimism

i'm starting to notice little advertisements here and there regarding "higher beings" or "masters" who are preparing to come save us from ourselves. it would be really nice to believe something like this. in fact, it would be really nice to believe that i am one of the chosen disciples with whom the masters are communicating telepathically and that i have an important role to play in saving the world, and that is why i'm so smart.

however, i don't buy this. it seems like a very easy out. maybe it's a necessary one because it's very hard to keep going on a day to day basis feeling so hopeless but i think the problem with "god" is people thinking that somehow this sort of parental figure is going to save us in the end, like in a movie. therefore we kind of abdicate responsibility and don't face the extreme nature of the situation we've gotten ourselves into.

i think i'm with kurt vonnegut in thinking that the human race is a disease and the earth's immune system is trying to get rid of us. he says the only responsible thing for us to do is to stop reproducing. it's sad but true. here's the thing. if there was a god and this god gave humans an ability to reason that the rest of the animal kingdom did not enjoy, then clearly our "test" was to see what we would do with it. having chosen to rape and destroy our planet and all the beings on it rather than linging humbly in harmony with nature, why should we expect to somehow get out of jail free at the end? if it was a test, obviously we've failed so why would this god come save us at the end? and if it wasn't a test, what kind of ludicrus god would give us the ability to reason, knowing (as it would, being an omniscient thing) what we were going to do with our reasoning power?

no, the "intelligent design" theory makes absolutely no sense. what intelligent designer would put humans in charge? so i'm devoid of delusional optimism. still it would be great to not only believe this but to actually have it happen.