note to self: click on every link in this column

aaah.... so i'm sitting here kind of multitasking and wishing i hadn't drunk coffee this morning because it makes me terribly anxious but i did it because it also helps me multitask and i have a lot of stuff to do... and right now that stuff involves filling out a mortgage application before 3:30 when my mom is going to call me to go over it with me because she knows more than i do about everything that has anything to do with money and anyway i do have an awful lot of email backed up to which i have not responded, much of which i have not yet read, and so i thought i'd knock off a few & delete them so i read mark morford's latest column and had to resist the terrible urge to follow his every link because everything he linked to in this one seemed way beyond relevant and something i'm enormously curious about right at this very moment. and it's funny because he mentioned "text-messaging your sister" and i had just sent off another long rambly email to my own sister. anyway i am proud of me because i resisted the urge to click on links, because i have things to do, but i thought i'd better write myself a reminder to go back and click on them later, and put said reminder somewhere where i'll actually stumble across it sometime, and this is that place. so that's what i just did. i just have one comment about mark's current column and that is that coffee makes me multitask more but as a person with actual ADD which i had long before i had any access to crazy media saturation, which i sometimes love by the way even though i also love mindfulness and yoga, when i take adderall it doesn't really make me multitask more or get a whole lot done. i think maybe i get less done, but i get less started. it calms me down and helps me focus better, but on fewer things. it also does help me wake up though and if i don't take it i can be a groggy loser. but i can also go to sleep on it. and i'm looking forward to following the links regarding ambien because holy fuck, that shit really works. i have had insomnia since i was a baby, or as long as i can remember anyway. i remember my mom being crazy-frustrated w/me because i would not fall asleep for naps and at night i could never sleep either so i was always dragging during the day. i've been taking much heavier medication for sleep, for years, and then my dr. gave me ambien and it's wonderful because it doesn't leave me groggy, and i sleep through the night w/out night sweats for the first time in forever. but my therapist said he thinks there is a dependency that develops... so i need to read up on it and anyway that's why i must return to this very important column later but for now i have to do my boring paperworky stuff and also put up links everywhere to si senor, the literary print journal to which i am a semi-regular contributor and the newest issue has just been published with two short pieces by yours truly, and everyone needs to go to their independent booksellers and tell them to order it, and that's as important as paperwork although perhaps it can wait until after 3:30, so long as i can remember to do it then if i haven't become too distracted by other things. anyway. note to self: shut up, jenna.